Over and Under

Yea. Today has already been a terrible day, but I can't let it get me down, can I?

No. I have to be optimistic. Who cares if I am already stressed beyong belief, or im on my period and I have had the WORST cramps ever? Who cares if my mom called me fat this morning and doesn't trust me to get my rear to school on time? Who cares if she is rude to me constantly? I give up. I work my tail off at school, and heaven forbid I sit down and do nothing the day I start my period and have the nastiest cramps ever? She definetly never let me live that one down.

UGG.

Seriously, I didn't even get to finish studying for my Bible Class test today. I'm losing my mind. I swear.

I have to work today too, which doesn't help me feel any better. A 5 hour shift isn't a big deal, but it is after one of the worst mornings of your life. It also doesn't help that I will have been rotting at school for an 8 hour day previously...

I need to suck it up and put a smile on my face though. If I can get my tired eyes to sparkle maybe the rest of my body will follow suit?

I really am tired. 2 weeks of school left and I'm just totally drained. I want out so bad. Not because I am totally excited about college, but just because I want out of this Hell Hole. High school needs to end. Summer needs to start.

Yea...

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Prom Night From Hell

Is a book I REALLY want to read.

But no seriously. Prom is tonight. I'm more stressed than excited. And not about Prom. I'm stressed about appointments. I REALLY hope I can make it to all of these appointments on time. Well, really all I have to do is get out of school at lunch, go tanning, look for my shoes, look for my jewelry, figure out what I want my mom to help me do to my hair, fix my dress, go get my nails done, get money from mom for the limo, make sure I have money to get into the After Party, and then make it to my friend's house by 5:30 because the Prom Banquet starts at 6.

Yea. Not too stressfull.

Oh, and somewhere in there I need to actually GET my hair done and DO my makeup. Sigh.

More updates when I actually get time to breathe.

Stressed Out Much?

GAWD. Prom is tomorrow, and I'm going to another very intimidating Prom next week too. STRESS.

Plus, I need to organize some college orientation crap. UGG. And I need to schedule some time for my Chem Final tutoring somewhere in there. Oh, and I still have to attend class and work. Yeaaaa...

Not to mention my imagination is sooooo overly active lately that I can't focus worth crap.

GAH. MUST. WRITE.

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I Need a Cool Layout

OMG. My layout is acceptable, but its also totally annoying. I want a cool one like other people, but for some reason they never work for me and I find it unbelievably frusterating. OMG.

I need to find an awesome website with a crap load of awesome working premade layouts because I am totally too lazy to make my own. Well, not really, but I have no time to spend on a layout at the moment.

Work was fun yesterday by the way. I enjoyed it. I kinda wanted to stay later than 9 o' clock, but they told me the state requires me to leave at nine on a school night. Dangit. I need money. LOL.

Its cool though.

Tomorrow morning I take my AP English test. Here's hoping all goes well! I think I'll do alright actually. Like in all seriousness. I know English waaaaaay better than I ever could have dreamed of knowing AP Government and Politics. Ew. I mean sure, I'm kinda nervous, but overall I feel waaaaay more prepared for it than I did with Gov.

Later days homies<3

Maybe?

OMFG. I have to work today... Ugg... I love making money and I love working with a majority of the people I do. But I'm tired. I really don't want to work tonight. Maybe they will call me and tell me I don't have to work today. Haha. No.

I'm at school right now, and I am desperately trying to focus on doing something important, but I can tell you right now that's not happening.

Sigh.

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Zoinks!

Alright. Long time no blog, eh?

Life has been pretty hectic around here for me. I took my first AP exam today (Government... yuck!) and it also ended up being my second final. It was a real bitch, let me tell you...

No seriously... I felt like I knew nothing. NOW THAT'S A SCARY THING. I'm a pretty decent student, so not knowing anything on an exam scared the crap outta me. But whatever. Atleast I know its not keeping me OUT of college.

Gah college... don't even get me started on that.

Needless to say, the rest of the day after the exam dragged on for what felt like years, and now I am here laying down on my bed contemplating what to do now. I should go tanning for prom, but seriously... I find tanning to be the biggest pain. I need to do it a little though. I look nasty. I'm as pale as a ghost, and my KP needs some way of being slightly hidden from the world. I'm hoping I can dry it up a little and tan out the redness... I got my fingers crossed...

Meanwhile, my mind has been spinning with all of these crazy dreams and characters. I have a bunch of stories in my head (No thats to all the awesome fictional novels I've been reading lately... and my booklist just keeps getting longer and longer...) and I desperately need to organize them and write them down.

Delusions of Grandeur maybe?

Who knows. I have really wanted to write a story and hopefully get it published one day in the future, but until I actually get something written down I'm just living in a fantasy.

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Life as We Know It

Alright,

So I FINALLY convinced myself to make one of these blogs... I need to mess around with my layout and make something cool because I DESPISE premade layouts...

School is as stressfull as ever lately... I have AP exams next week (which I feel totally ill prepared for) and I took my Chem 2 final today. THAT was interesting...

My boss has been upping my hours at work a ton too... GAH.

Plus, it totally doesn't help that my overactive imagination has been swinging at full force lately. Everytime I do anything it feels like I have inspiration to write something. As soon as I sit down the inspiration evaporates into nothingness though. I have all these ideas and no patience to actually get them down into writing. I'm ridiculous.

I envy all those writers who have actually managed to get their dreams and thoughts into an actual published book. Seriously.

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